Apology

To those I once stood beside.

I don't come with explanations.

I come carrying the weight of what I failed to protect.

To the one who believed in me the most

I let my guard fall when you needed me strong.

I blurred the lines that were supposed to hold firm.

To the one who stirred something deeper than I could govern

I don’t regret our love, but I grieve the damage it left behind.

To the brothers who trusted my hands, my word, my place among them,

I broke the invisible bonds that made us more than men,

And I know some wounds don’t close, not even with time.

To the higher call I once lived by

I lost the road for a while,

Thinking feeling was enough to guide me where principle should have held.

I’m not here asking for absolution.

I'm not trying to rewrite history.

I’m here because you deserve to hear it.

I am sorry.

Sorry for the fractures you had to carry because I couldn't carry my own.

Sorry for what was broken that can’t be remade.

I will carry this.

I should carry this.

If memory holds any part of me, let it be the part that still loved you all enough to grieve the cost.

That's all I have left to offer.

-Lancelot- 

Blackened Knight

-Winquind-